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Violence Ensues
01:14
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I try to breathe
I try to catch my breath
ghastly fingers are grabbing
I grit my teeth
rip skin for a chance
to break this grip on me
terror is breaking my will
I try to breath
I try to catch my breath
losing resolve
hot breath coats my cheek
stale air fills my chest
force this
force this down
force this
I feel
hot sweat coat my skin
stale blood fills my chest
I have lost
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2. |
An Ending
01:22
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well, it was all true
every so-called forewarning
shrugged off, forgotten and cataloged
the whole committee of like-minded souls
a man, he looks around
tries to give some comfort
crying is all he hears
what was he expecting?
hopeless
helpless
countryside is overwhelmed
isn’t enough to describe
a pervasive sense of dread
mind circles around again
suffering, showering
as a submission to the sea
it becomes a certain destiny
leaving an empty hollow
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3. |
Caged Resentment
01:08
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more noise happens
will I block it out?
will I speak my mind or will I
sit in silence as always seems to happen
bite my tongue
unless i want
to be cast out
berated too
aftermath looks like a sure thing
picturing myself staring in the mirror
in self loathing
trapped inside this cage
and choosing to remain
disappoint day to day
anger and pain seem to validate
what’s the end objective?
after all of this what’s next on their list
remain silent
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4. |
Chemical Reaction
01:31
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terror, horror, abhorrence
unease, distress, it’s foreboding
nightmare, dismay, phobia
tremor, cold sweat, reverence
auto-
what could have caused this?
-matic
how long before easing?
neuron connectivity
it's dopamine reaction
terror, horror, abhorrence
unease, distress, foreboding
flood of chemical cause fast pulse
weak and unsteady framework
adrenal
cortical
fervent breath
fight or flight
tremors (immunal)
cold sweat (suppression)
panic (dilation)
it’s reaction
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5. |
Exasperated
01:39
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can't control myself
I am past that point
an unconscious boiling point that seems to control me
life long branch of my
reactive conduct
an explosive boiling point that has control of my...
actions are impulsive
my actions are impulsive and blind
is there comfort I don't know of
any solace soon forthcoming
burning white hot at the center
this faculty renders pain
sneaky neighbor feigns its cover
all i have is realization
heat begins to fill my gut and guilt fills up my mind
why can't I
why can't I
why can't I
can't I cope?
I'm a prisoner of myself with
allies that I push away and
the only way there is change is
if I start the climb
start the climb
start the climb
start the climb
make your step
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6. |
Dilemmas of the Blind
00:49
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is there cause in this life
I try hard to be moral
who can hear when I say
or wonder what should be done
spectors, spirits, poltergeists
omnipotent ghosts
floating in nothing?
trudging onward through this muck
tolerate disquietude
wanting to subdue the thoughts
that aren’t a part
how to accept / how to know for sure
is there any salvation from this?
what can I do while I am still here?
the worst part is just not knowing what succeeds
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7. |
Controlled Submission
01:53
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fear has its grip on me
I feel it physically
she can see it plainly
it's not hard to tell
blind men, they could suffice it from
the silence in the air
tap into a part of myself
that part is not alive here
lost resolve can find its way home
fairy tales you tell yourself
I have viewed such goods in cohorts
they are lying you will see
what will become of myself
reach for me and I will guide
mind is made up
psyche controls the body
give into your anxiousness
give into the discomfort
hope does not exist here
hope is just a figment
hope becomes my nightmare
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8. |
The Familiar Darkness
01:22
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wait, come back, I can’t seem to fall asleep
it’s dark in here and I don’t want to be alone
there is not a thing in the darkest corners that can do any harm
so, sleep tight
seems to be a familiar tail
small girl meets shadow, fills herself with doubt
father brings comfort hurriedly
without a sign of hesitation
there is not a thing in the darkest corners that can do any harm
no time for tales, it’s much too late for that
just close your eyes, you’ll be asleep in no time
and the light creeps out
leaving her surrounded
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9. |
Consent to Hatred
02:08
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is there a fix handy for this setting
imagine you see the hatred of your peers
barreling toward brutal acceptance of
pure hatred and consent of violence
wrestling with the outcome of where we all will end up
brutal consent
unheard outcome
hard to tell what could be coming
could be that we end up fine
brutal consent
unheard outcome
just can’t help but to see it all pass
just as it has before
barreling toward brutal acceptance of
pure hatred and consent of violence
listen
everyone's talking
pipe down
ignorant companions
struggling with this justification, callous and dismissive
can’t find my place
In this
time is the only agent
that can give any close
it may be these thoughts are naught
it may be that there is loss
either way, resentment
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Organ Dealer:
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Eric Schnee
Chris Ward
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